"Adversity can be our greatest motivation for change, or our deadliest means to surrender." - Anonymous
Good morning, fam,
Anyone else feeling like the dumpster fires are just getting higher? See the radical and crazed discord between people adding fuel to the flame?
I’m not saying this isn’t happening.
I just want to remind you to not toss in the towel and give up.
It’s hard, but if we think beyond that really big feeling, it’s not so much that you don’t want to be here anymore, but more that you just need a reprieve from the stress and disappointments of your life.
That is a completely different want.
I know, because I have felt them both: Actual suicidal ideation and this need for a break, a breath, where no one in the whole world needs anything from me.
I want you to understand that:
this is normal, especially in this world. Especially for those of us on the neurospicy spectrum. You are not alone in feeling like this.
it can hurt just as deeply as suicidal ideation, but if you listen closely, you’ll hear the part of your soul that says, “Hey, we have shit to do! We have plans! We have goals! We have food and experiences we want to try! We don’t want to die!” That’s a sign that you don’t actually want to erase your existence.
you deserve that space. I know getting it is hard, but carving out 5-10 minutes just for you to breathe is worth it. And it takes time to build a support structure around you that can let you do that. But you deserve this.
I know you may have a lot of doubt about your existence, but I want you to sit with the thought that you are worthy of a long life. This darkness isn’t forever, even though it may feel like it, and I count you as a bright star in my night sky.
You are loving. You are loveable. You, my dear child, are loved.
Love,
Your Mom